The Lord of the Flies

[I came across a poem/song I wrote when I was 14 or 15, written with pencil on lined notebook paper, how refreshing. Those were the days. I could create back then...so the structure is crap, but who cares? I think it's awesome.]


On helicopter wings they fly to the ground
and bury themselves in the corpse
in manic ecstasy they suck up the blood
as they crawl in, over, and around

no need to rush
there's much left to spare
soon you will learn to fly
and then we will spread our kingdom of fear
you, my friend, and I

[chorus]
sing my sweet flies
swarm of militant feasting
choreograph your beautiful dance
let your children swim
beneath the skin
and gorge until they are fat
[chorus]

decimate and destroy the calm
in an abrupt awakening of screams
infiltrate every nook and cranny
of their destined to be lost dreams

cover their bodies in blanket horde
liquefy their eyes
and then you will gather in black masses
with me, the Lord of the Flies

[chorus]
sing my sweet flies
swarm of militant feasting
choreograph your beautiful dance
let your children swim
beneath the skin
and gorge until they are fat
[chorus]

soon the world will be our playground
bleak and grey she will be
she will cry tears of blood
in a flood of carnage and eternity

guardsmen of Heaven
will fire their bows
and He will engulf the world in flames
then t'will be a lifeless land of woes
yet we'll still keep playing our games


[chorus]
sing my sweet flies
swarm of militant feasting
choreograph your beautiful dance
let your children swim
beneath the skin
and gorge until they are fat
[chorus]


and the world is reborn again and again
forever in it's cycle of pain
He will always rebuild it
and we will corrupt it

in this oblivion we'll always remain

I can see the dark side of the moon from here, can you see it? It has monsters writhing on it like maggots. They're falling from the sky like the Lunar Cry...

There's nothing but sadness and misery after you've left...She says you make her heart smile, but how can she smile when you're dead? Do they forget?

I don't want the pain to stop. I want them all to suffer with me. I'm held together so loosely. I dream of you. I don't want to ever stop hurting over you. I don't ever want to go numb. I don't ever want to forget.

So these days I'm the walking dead and I wish I could be put to rest right with you...because really, none of this is worth it.

I use sarcasm to hide the pain. I try to make others smile so that one day when I'm gone I'll be loved, but in the end...

We are all forgotten.

silent vibrations
in electric veins...
washing over like a wave

it's already in my blood
I just don't know it but..
it's there for good

I'm falling in and out
drifting down and down and down...
there's no way around it

I can never escape
this hereditary fate...
I feel it comfort me

push the needle deeper
show you where the pain hurts...
I'm going back to sleep

I feel my back breaking
another life the world is taking...
I never really wanted it

I'll give you what is yours
and you can have what is mine...
split and divide

It's already played out
we all know without a doubt...
I'm going to die

Jordan

I dreamt of you today. We were at the place we worked at together and I saw your head looking around a corner at me, your hair red and messy like it would get when you were being funny and goofing around...You smiled at me and then I smiled and laughed because I was happy to see you and you were alive, I thought you were alive again, I thought it was real. Then you were standing next to me suddenly, this time your hair was black and longer like it used to be...and then I noticed the huge gash on the right side of your skull...it looked like it was healing I think, but it was in the same place it would've been. I asked why you were so short suddenly, I was confused, you weren't as tall as you used to be, but you just smiled and hugged me. You never say anything to me. You always just smile. Then I woke up in my dark room and ran out to the living room. I sat on the couch and told someone you had just visited me, and then I felt your presence in the hallway. I said you're coming back for me. I felt someone about to enter the room, I thought it was you, it wasn't. It was something 7 foot tall, wearing a long coat. It's head just a blank white mask floating on top of where the neck should've been but wasn't. Light blue eyes looked out at me from behind the featureless mask. It attacked me and I woke up from my dream within a dream. I woke up and you were still dead. I woke up and my world fell away at my feet. I woke up and felt the pain of you dying all over again because I didn't realize I was dreaming, all I know was you were in front of me again, smiling and I thought it was real. I woke up and my heart raced, hurting from adrenaline...I woke up and I wished I was dead.

untouchable

I'm all anger, it courses through me like hot lead in my veins. My mind has already fled the scene of this crime though my body's been left behind. I blow my eardrums out because it makes me feel alive. Everyone else is in control of my life.

Left to the mercy of a stranger, can you put me up for the night? If I licked my lips and spread my legs a little would that make everything alright? There is no name for a thing like me. I always arrive with a disclaimer: fantasy is better than reality.

Your Christ is your own dick, and that's pretty pathetic because what is Christ anyway but a bunch of fucking bullshit? A couple inches of what you call "glory", is that all you ever want to be? You could do so much better with yourself if you weren't lost in your vanity.

They say "as above, so below" but I'm not beneath anyone because I stand alone.

Something my little brother Jordan wrote that comes to mind after a dream I had:

"You hit me up

when your luck is tried.

when you've given up

and lost your pride

you know that I'll always be there

cause I'm the only one who cares...oh....



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[chorus]x2

Confuse me....Abuse me...

You make me feel like a slut...

Confuse me....Abuse me...

You make me feel like a slut..

Confuse me....Abuse me...

is that what you really want?



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Lock up your heart and throw away the key

never knowing how special you'll always be to me

you leave me nothing but your scent in my sheets

just to show me you don't have to sow

what you reap...oh....

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[chorus]x2

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lips locked. our souls are severed.

rip me apart from the inside out.

just to put me back together.

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[chorus]x2

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IS THAT WHAT YOU FUCKING WANT?!?!

IS THAT WHAT YOU FUCKING WANT?!?!

IS THAT WHAT YOU FUCKING WANT?!?!

IS THAT WHAT YOU FUCKING WANT?!?!"

By Jordan Aris-Rashaun Jackson

Let's shed our lives and come back as different entities
If we blow our brains out will we be reborn as stars?