I ask myself what am I doing here, I'm in this familiar situation
how could I go back to something that's caused me so much humiliation
but you're the puppeteer, and you use my veins as a marionette
just scratch under my chin a little bit and I'll be your pet

Mother Destroyer

Destroyer, Devourer

I hate myself for letting you go,
you had been the perfect zygote.
I made you mine and corrupted you
with my essence, I aborted your wide eyes
and childlike innocence.
You deserved better than me, no less,
I then devoured you and received smug satisfaction
from the sins of your flesh.


Mother, Lover

Drain me dry. Be my parasite.
I can feel your pain.
Be my child. I'm your mother now.
I will keep you safe.
Drink from my breast,
infest, this is parasitism not incest,
I need your body to ingest, I'll keep
you close to my heart, deep in my chest.

Fog

I've burned a couple friendships
over the precipitation's calm complacence
I wish I would learn a little time management
I don't know how to cope with anything that needs maintenance

everybody gets mad at me for it and it never clicks
when time passes by I guess I just don't see it
so for some reason I can't see the forest for the trees
the sands of the hourglass pass through me like wind in the leaves

then sometimes my thoughts and pulse start to race
I begin to feel out of place and I inadvertently alienate
and soon the fog rolls in with no explanation
but in the end there's no one left to placate

I really never meant to make you cry
I do the things that I do and I just don't know why
but sometimes I'd just rather be standing alone in the fog
alone in my head, at one with the dark

Naive boy

I prayed to the good lawd to send me a boy
the good lawd, he sent me, sent me an 18 year old toy
now no matter what I do I can't get rid of this kid
he's stuck to me like glue

I'm not your mommy
I'm not your daddy
I'm not your saving grace

Now I, I think he wants to say "I love you"
and I don't want to hurt him but I'm sure he's quite a fool
he could be anything to anyone
though to me he's only a tool

I'm not your angel
I'm not your savior
I'm not your lackluster kiss

You were good for a few,
and, and we've even had a bit of fun too
but I don't really see myself at all in you
and I don't know what you see in me so I think we should let it be


I'm not your "baby"
I'm not your game
I'm not your fate

Head hurts, so pop a couple excedrin for migraine relief
take ranitidine for the acid as stomach begins to bleed
migraine's still not gone, take 500mg of acetaminophen
nausea starts, so now I'm taking dramamine
head still hurts so take one more excedrin
maybe I should also eat a gummy vitamin
in case I'm lacking a certain vital nutrient
drink some milk to settle the acid pain
dab nostrils with oil of soothing jasmine again
perhaps this will aid in some relaxation
head still hurts, so take one more excedrin
dilate the blood vessels, drink a little caffeine
now I have nausea, acid reflux and a migraine
nothing I take seems to stop the pain

head still hurts, take another excedrin.